A Long Night

I spent another night on the couch - no more switching out with my sister. LOL  I don't mind sleeping there, it allows me to be closer to my dad. Last night was one of those nights that it proved to me how much I need to be there.

He feel asleep early, about seven pm then woke a little - I am having such a difficult time spelling this morning. My mind doesn't compute simple words. LOL - after nine and needed me to help him get to the bathroom to clean out his Colostomy bag.

He has been so weak the past few days and I first thought it was where he stayed in bed for two days, but now I'm not sure. He sleeps a lot now and I was told that was a sign of the end. He's asleep in his chair in the living room. He had to use his walker to get there and even with that his legs shook.

Eating consists of a small breakfast - something he couldn't even do this morning - he tried to eat two eggs and a slice of bacon and a piece of toast with grape jam. All he managed to get down was the toast and a bite or two of one of the two eggs, he didn't touch the bacon.  I gave him one of his Boost drinks and two glasses of buttermilk- blah! LOL I'm hoping that will be enough to keep him from getting hungry. Supper has become non-existint for him.

I have place to T-Bone steaks in seasoning sauce and placed them in the refridgerator for tomorrow - I want them nice and tender. I doubt if he will eat one, but I'm going to do my best to make the tempting.

After he cleaned his Colostomy bag, he made it back to bed and was fast asleep. Then I heard him groaning in his sleep and I got up to see what was wrong. Turned out his tailbone was really hurting and I got his pillow he sits on and helped him up to sit in the chair we have in his room. I ended up giving him something for the pain in liquid form. He was then able to get back in bed and go back to sleep.

I went back to the couch and fell back to sleep only to have a bad dream and to be woke up by the sound of things falling off his table by his bed. I jumped up and ran to the bedroom and discovered Dad had been trying to pick up his small flashlight to check the time and in the process knocked off his water glass, the flashlight landed in the floor as well as his glasses.

I got that all straightened and a fresh glass of water for him and he stated again how bad his tailbone hurt. I asked him if he wanted something for the pain again and he said no. He was soon back to sleep and I headed back to the couch.

I woke to the sound of him groaning again and got up to check on him, he was sound asleep and back to the couch I went - that was about six-thirty.

Finally about seven-thirty I heard him call my name and I got up and went to his room to find him sitting up on the side of his bed. I helped him to the chair in his room and gave him something for pain again in liquid form. We have been up ever since - well I have. LOL

He woke for just a moment and has fallen back to sleep. I need to go get him some more of his Boost drinks, but am really afraid to leave him alone. I guess I have finally reached that point in his illness. I will probably call my brother and ask him to cover to be with Dad so I can run to the store and then when I get back he can leave. He says it's to hard on him to see Dad in the condition he is in. Well, it's hard on me as well, but I'm dealing with it.

Guess I have rambled enough. Thanks to whomever reads this.


April